life.

bull.
drama.
crap.
drama.
school.
drama.
work.
drama.
friends.
drama.
family.
drama.
love.
drama.
okay... get it? i have way too much. im moving. thats all that can be resolved, and im sure theres still going to be some sort of drama in my life. why cant i get AROUND it, when im not even looking for it!! whatever. Good night.

3 months and im still breathing

Wow, okay so last night ... sucked. the end. I felt like crap to put it slightly, andddddd i shouldnt have gone. ugh.

on a higher note, i was watching some videos today, and i think i fell in love at the smile. Thats what it was... please stop smiling, ill get over you. =/. Im so ready for this weekend, its rediculous. Its on. For sure. ha.

Work, sucked again today, buttttt whatever. I need to find furniture ASAP. I need to find another job .. asap, i think itll be weird working somewhere else, because ive been at Lancome so long, but i want just like a second part time job, because i need freakin money, im broke like REDICULOUSLY, right now, ive been spendingggg wayyyyyyyyyyyy too much money. I cant handle this.

Anyway,

Its the way you smile,
Its the way you look at me
Its the way you talk to me
The way you treated me
the way that i cant get over you.
Please leave my head alone,
i need to walk away,
you seemed to have moved on,
yet im sure you just settled in.
Its okay, ill be fine.
I just need to learn to say good bye.

What you do to me.

Ah so today i bought the new Mandy Moore cd, which is by the way, simply irresistable. I LOVE IT, so say the least. Yet, i was kinda upset when i went to wal-mart firstly because i hate going there, and secondly because i went to buy the new Kelly Clarkson cd, and it wasnt in the store on the way home, so now im about ot go out of my way to get it at the store here in town. blah. I CANT WAIT THOUGH, it seems to be awesome. I love the song sober on there. pretty much amazing.

Today sucked. I sold= nothing. basically. I had a doctors appointment for my eyes, only to find out that i was still extremely dry and it was causing my contacts to not stick to my eye. uhg. i did have a nice conversation with someone while i was there though, kinda cheered me up rather good! =] . CODI is going to try out again July 13th, which im VERY SUPER excited for her. (Good luck!) yay. she makes me proud! =]!

Looks like ill be a bar junkie again tom. yay. Find the joy in me. Im just ready for this weekend to come along so i can have some funnnn, and TAN! ha. hopefully. I JUST got a new swimsuit in the mail today from Pac Sun, its adorable. I love it. This Blog is seriously the most random ever, but . . love it, or hate it, i really dont fucking care. HA! okay.. thats all for now. peace.

the world will never ever be the same, and your to blame

In a good way.

Ps. Im going to try to start blogging more reguraly .. although i NEVER have time. Ill try to make it, and stop complaining about not making it ha. Me and a girl from work came up with the no complaining policy, because we have WWAYYY too much to complain about at work, and im so over dillards. ANYONE HIRING? I need a job, asap. haha kidding, but really.. Oh and the whole moving out thing is looking prettty good.

Ive been sick for like a week now, my tonsils are huge, and disgusting, and my glands are swollen, and it sucks.. so i have to get them lasered out of my throat on July 11th. GREAT, huh?
Hopefully, ill be going to thib this weekend to have some fun with someone down there, and of course all my great friends that go to school there, or maybe we can make that trip vice versa? who knows.

PS. NO ELECTRICITY SUCKS. we were out for like 2 hours today, and it was NOT fun. okay, the end. i need sleep. good night !

Listen to my voice it's my disguise

So .. i recently discovered this song, and its pretty much amazing. i love it.

Hey there Delilah What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true
Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good
Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fal
Wed have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah
I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame
Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This ones for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me.

.... I LOVE IT, its so me. Its what everyone longs for, that perfectness. I want to be this to someone, and someone be this to me. I long for perfect, yet its so far, and hard to reach. Distance seperates perfectness. Distance in mind, thought, physical, and mental..

I think ive found what im looking for, in life.. If not im seriously OVER looking, and im not doing it anymore. IF it wants me it will find me. My voice, smile, and laughter will be my disguise. Thats all. Good night.

Tennessee

Tennessee better take World Series back to the SEC. Thats all. The End.